The girls are here!

They got here yesterday afternoon. So far it’s been okay. I slept between Mika and Nikki last night (Camila was with her parents). the moving between one bed and another began last night – which sucks, so I need to get that to stop ASAP.

No contact from Jason since Thursday night/Friday morning I think it was. So fuck it. I’m tired of shit like that.

This afternoon we’re going to Fallbrook because Michaels is having a good sale. So that will be… interesting at the very least.

I’m tired!

This is the best feeling ever…

I painted my fingernails.

But I need to get the polish off. I feel like my nails are heavy. I don’t like it.

I need to clean my room tomorrow before the girls get here. I also have to make space for them to put their things.

Jason texted me last night at 1am and said that it was a busy day and that he’d call me today… well supposedly he got off work at 10pm, and it’s not 10:46 and no call. Fine, he’s not interested anymore… whatever, I can move on from that – it’s the not being upfront and honest that pisses me off. Be a man, be an adult even, and just say it already. Unless he’s doing it on purpose to annoy the hell out of me. Or he could be busy and whatnot. Blah. I will not call or text him though, not unless he makes the first move. In the meantime I’ll talk to other guys and whatnot. He might just be going on other dates, which is fine, but don’t be an asshole. Blah.

Went to the doctor today (and fuck I just remembered I have an eye doctor appt tomorrow!). I got a new BC prescription so i’ll only have my period every 3 months instead of once a month. That will be REALLY nice. I had a pap smear and then all blood work done… so we’ll see how I’m doing with that stuff. Hopefully well. We shall see.

I stayed up late last night and I need to sleep.

Jonathan continues to be cute! He’s keeping his eyes open and staying awake for longer periods of time… which is awesome. I was holding him in the patio this evening cause it was hot in the house (I had a blanket around him, though) and he was giving some smiles! I know, it’s gas and what not, but it was still SOOO cute and I can’t wait for him to be smiling some more. So cute!

Alright, gonna put the computer down and watch TV (some movie prob).

I hate men.

I really do. they are so annoying. No call from him yesterday or tonight. I called about 10 minutes ago but got no answer – I left a messege.

My nails have grown out! Which makes me happy… but I know it can only last so long.

I have an interview for a full-time teaching position on the 8th. It’s a charter school in Los Angeles… but it’s a full time job. It would take an hour or so to get there, so I’d be going on no sleep… but what can I do? I mean… I don’t even know if I’d get the job anyway.

Didn’t spend too much time with Jonathan today – but he continues to be very cute.

Frustration

Jason didn’t call today. Oh well.

Lindsey hasn’t called me back so I odn’t know if we’re going to the beach tomorrow or not. Whatever.

I really need a job. A job that will make me busy and give me the opprotunity to meet other people, make freinds, meet guys…etc. This is such a hard thing for me to do.

The whole thing makes me sad. The lack of friends (although I don’t know if I’d like having more friends) and the lack a family that doesn’t fight at every moment. I know that all families have their problem and fights…but I’m tired of it. It’s not supposed to be like this. I need to get out, but I feel trapped to my mom. What would she do without me? Maybe that’s snobby… but it’s just the way it is.

I’m falling asleep.

Good night.

Part II of The Baby’s Delivery

After about an hour or so they moved Dana to the post-delivery room and Jonathan into the nursery to have him checked out. David stayed with him while I moved back and force between the window outside the nursery and Dana’s room (just down the hall). I kept giving Dana updates on Jonathan as David gave them to me through the window. He passed all his tests. They gave him a bath… he was there for about an hour. Right before he was to come out (at around 4pm) the family (mom, dad, sister and Nikki) arrived. Nikki was taking the situation in. Initially she just wanted to see her mom so I took her to Dana’s room. Then I told her we should go see Jonathan again so we went back. She asked questions – Why was he in there? Could she go in there? Why not? When was he coming out? – but she didn’t have to wait too long until he came out (at about 4:15pm). They rolled him over to Dana’s room. I asked Nikki if she wanted to hold him and she said she did, so I sat her on my lap and David placed Jonathan on hers. She didn’t hold him for too long, I think she was a bit nervous about the whole thing. She did hold him another 2 times before he came home from the hospital.

The family didn’t stay too long because of fighting – G wanted to hold the baby, wanted pictures of her (she is obsessed with them) and yea, just drama galore. Dad left in a huff/tantrum. David was going to take Nikki, mom and G home and then come back and I would go home. Before they left, though, Lindsey showed up to meet Jonathan (she had never met a little newborn baby before). So the went to go home but David came back soon thereafter because they found my dad outside. We then decided that I would take Nikki home in their car, he would drive my car home and then pick up his car from home. Dad never got to hold the baby that first visit because he left so quickly – so later on G, me, Daddy and Nikki went back in David’s car. He drove them all back and I stayed with Dana for another hour or so. David had to go back to post pictures so that Dana’s family could see what JD looks like. It was getting late and I was going to take Nikki to their house to spend the night together. So before David got back I left. I go thome right about the same time that David was heading back to the hospital. I went home and took Nikki to their house and we spent the night together – it was quite nice and she has wanted me to do the same the past couple of nights, which hasn’t been possible.

None of us headed back to the hospital again. They were supposed to release them at noon on Sunday (24 hours after birth) but there were idiots working in the hospital that day so they didn’t get hom until about 4pm or so.

Now another post will be made of what has happened since then.

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A Crazy Few Days!

Dana had her last pre-natal appointment on Friday at 10:30am. I wanted to go because they were going to do an ultrasound and I wanted to see that. So off the four of us headed. They had us (or, really, Dana) waiting for an hour before they called her. They did an ultrasound and the amniotic fluid was low so the doctor said that they needed to induce soon because it was too low for the baby to be in there for much longer. From what I understand if the AF was too low it could put preasure on the umbiical cord which could stop blood flow to the baby. The doctor gave the option of going into the hospital right that moment or waiting at the latest until Saturday morning. The doctor told us about a different drug to induce labor which was slow and it was less painful. They decided to use that method instead and so they scheduled Dana to be admitted to Northridge Hospital Medical Center at 7pm on Friday, June 20, 2008.

I originally planned to meet up with them there at the same time they admitted her but I finally had a hold of Lindsey and so I decided to go to dinner with her and then go to the hospital and spend the night so David could go home and be with Nikki. I took David and Dana some Jamba Juice and acquainted myself with where she would be giving birth. At that point they hadn’t done anything yet. I made it back to the hospital at about 10:30pm. David left and I helped Dana get ready for bed. It was a difficult night for me because it was an uncomfortable couch (although it was stretched out to become a bed) and there was no real pillow. I woke up several times during the night – but I find that I do this whenever I’m not at home in my own bed.

Everytime Dana had to go to the bathroom she had to disconnect herself from the machine that was keeping tack of Jonathan’s hearth beat and Dana’s contractions and then connect the cables when she got back in bed. I helped her do that, but she did it alone once or twice. We got up for good at around 6:30am or so. Things went slowly for a while. The new nurse came to check on her and we both found her to be very nice and attentive (her name is Jill). It was nice because for the rest of the stay I didn’t like the nurses that attended to either Dana or Jonathan. Jill checked how far along Dana was, as far as being dialated, and she was about 4 cm and 60% efaced. Jill went to let Dana’s doctor know (Dr. Trites). When she came back some time later she said that the doctor decided that it was time to take out the original inducer and put her on Pitocine which is a faster and more painful inducer.

When Jill took it out of her vagina Dana had some pain. At this point I really suggested to Dana to let them do the epidural on her (she had been avoiding it because she wanted to wait until the pain was too much for her to handle). She finally agreed to it and they called the doctor to perform it. He came in a bit after 9am (a bit after David got there and brought me a Jamba Juice) and kicked us out of the room for about half an hour. David and I came back in and Dana was relaxed. She stayed relaxed for quite a while. They put her on one side to relieve some pain that she had in her left side. This was a pain she had during the last few weeks of pregnancy and it was not even worse. Apparently a pocket that the epidural didn’t take. Dana complained about it, but they weren’t quite sure what it was. Dana’s doctor arrive shortly there after and came to check her out and see how dialated she was. They measured her at 5 cm and 60-70% efaced. At this point they switched her to the Pitocin.

From that point on things began to move pretty quickly. They switched Dana to lay on her right side. The pain on her left side began to get stronger, especially during contractions. We were all wondering why she felt them so much since she did have the epidural. I told David to go get the nurse and he did. She saw the pain that Dana was in and decided to call the the doc and see if they could increase the drip dosage of the epidural. The doctor was in another surgery (a c-section for twins) but he approved it and Jill uped. Dana was not convinced that it would make a difference at all. The doc had said he’d come and check on her after he was done in the c-section. Dana was in a lot of pain. I was standing by her head on her right side. She was squeezing one of my hands and she was “massaging” my right arm during each contraction. It was painful for both of us at this point, although not nearly as painful for me as it was for her. Jill decided to check how she was looking down below since Dana was feeling something coming out of her…. sure enough Dana was 9 cm dialated and I can’t remember how efaced she was, although I suppose it was quite alot.

They had to wait a bit for her to completly dialate to 10cm. For that time she continued to torture my arm. David was busy taking pictures and video. At about 11:45 or so the doctor (Trites) told Dana she could start pushing and she did. Each time she finished she asked if the head was out yet, alas it was not. David caught Jonathan’s head on the video as it was coming out, although he turned the camera off and concentrated on pictures for the actual delivery.

Jonathan’s official time of delivery was 11:59am.

The cord was wrapped around his neck (something that the doc had said might be causing the pain on his left side) so Dr. Trites had to have Dana stop pushing as soon as the head was all out so that she could cut the cord, which she did and then Dana easily got him the rest of the way out.

What happened for the next little bit was quite rushed – putting him on Dana’s chest, putting him on the warmer, getting his nose and mouth cleared, etc. There is video and pictures detailing all off this. Hopefully David will have a better memory of it all.

So that was the delivery. I’ll continue with what happened after that later… cause now I’m tired!

Jonathan David, 7lbs 8oz, 20 in. June 21, 2008, 11:59am.

Me holding Jonathan (JD – what I’ll call him) when he’s less than an hour old)

Me holding Nikki as she holds JD. JD is about 4 hours old.

JD holding my finger when he’s less than an hour old.

Dear Lindsey

It has been 4 months since we’ve seen each other. I can appreciate that you’re busy. I know you work hard to get the most out of the classes you take. I know that you are working hard to pay your rent and be able to pay off your debts. I understand that Jon comes from far away and you want to be with him when you can. I would like to be able to see you sometime, too, however. I have many attempts at contacting you – calling and texting you – so that we could catch up. I suggested just getting drinks or dinner, or even meeting up for lunch for a quick chat. You have either said you were too busy or you haven’t responded at all. I love you, but I’m getting tired of being ignored.

I don’t want you to take this letter the wrong way, but I’m sad and upset over the lack of communication between us the past few months and hope that it can soon be fixed.

_____________

I sent that via snail-mail to Lindsey. I just couldn’t deal with it without doing something about it anymore.