All Turned In!

I turned everything in! I applied for the credential and now it’s just a matter of waiting.

So now I have to pack and I’ll be ready to go! Woo! Mika called me earlier to chat – but my phone isn’t charged – so I’ll give her a call when I finish charging the phone some. She’s very exciting that I’m coming tomorrow. She can’t wait. I know how she feels, for sure. I used to could down by half an hour until M&M would get here when I was younger.

Last night I got two new pairs of capri’s at JC Penney’s. Size 16!!!!! But that’s because I wanted them baggy. But still – it’s loosing weight time! But who knows if that’ll happen. I can’t wait to have a job and join Weight WAtchers so I can loose this ugly fat.

Okay – back to knitting the blanket!

Grrr!

I went to my seminar class last night. Well….

She now tells me things should be different than how I had them in there… and now I have to change everything. Well, that’s exaggerating – but I feel like it. I e-mailed Steve Holle to see what he says. I don’t want to do all the work to fix it without being sure I have to do it.

At 1:30 I have a CPR class – so that’ll take up my entire afternoon. BLAH! I’m feeling yucky – well, just overwhelemed I suppose. I want it done with already!

Maybe I’ll just do it so that it’s over with!

I also had a date last night. It went well. I enjoyed it. We’ll see how things go from now.

Umm…. oh- Free Ice cream at ben and jerry’s tonight!!!

Went!

Went to the festival of books at UCLA today. did a LONG walk. Up a hill. A very high hill.

Umm, met someone online, going out tomorrow night – we’ll see how it goes.

I’ve been working on a blanket for Jonathan (most likely my nephews name).

I finished everything for my portfolio – it’s going to be checked tomorrow at my seminar class (the last one!) and then I’ll make revisions as necessary before I turn it in on Tuesday! Yay!

Umm. sort of bored but not in the mood to chat or do anything.

Finally!

Finaly something exciting happened. Sort of.

I went out with my mom and Nikki yesterday. We went to the mall and then to Bed, Bath and Beyond which is across the street from the mall. As we were leaving… well, I went to the parking lot exit. There is a light at that particular exit. The light was red for me so I stopped. My car was mostly in the parking lot, but the front of it was on the sidewalk. I’m waiting for the light to change and suddenly I hear the car being bumped forward. I look behind me and see this old lady behind me leaning over her passenger seat and she does some sort of gesture towards me. A minute later the light turns green so I go foward and stop as soon as possible, expecting her to stop behind me. I see her go around me so I start following her. I follow her into the parking lot at the mall – she goes in circles and I keep behind her, honking and flashing my lights. Finally she parks and I park behind her so she couldn’t get out. She gets out of her car and I approach her telling her that she can’t hit and run. So she waves me away and tells me that I hit her, I rolled back into her! She leaves to go into the store. I tell her I’m going to call the police and I do.

My brother comes out (it’s his car) and the police get there. Of course the cops don’t want to do anything. My brother thought says, no, he wants to file a police report. Finally they go into the mall to try to look for her. They can’t find her – start taking pics of the cars and blah. Finally, 2 hours later she comes out of the mall – immediately saying that I was the one who did it – blah blah blah. Of course – the point wasn’t being hit – it was that she didn’t stop – that is a HIT-AND-RUN. AGAINST THE LAW!

If she would have stopped – I wouldn’t have made a big deal about it. It would’ve been fine, no cops necessary, nothing. But she didn’t stop – so she’s screwed. It was a rental she was driving too. So ha!

So yes, that’s my exciting news!

One more day!

So one more day and I am done! I’m so happy and relieved. I have to finish my goals, however. I’ve gotten 2 written, but not reviewed yet. I need to get a move on, on that – but I’ve been out doing something everyday this week. Tomorow we’re going somewhere as well. And when I am home, Nikki is too, usually. And that means that I have no time to do anything. She’s in and out. In, out, in out. It’s annoying to try to get work done with that. But I can do it this weekend and I have Monday until 4 when I go to my seminar class. I want to have the portfolio completely done by that point. That way they can critiq (sp?) it the best they can and I can fix it before going back and turning it in sometime during that week – before I leave on Thursday morning. Maybe it’ll be great and I won’t have to make any changes and I can turn it in then… although I’m assuming that the office closes at 5 and I’d have to turn it in the next day anyway. I would like to be able to have someone drive me there so that I can drop it off and not park and walk a long distance (in this heat) OR pay $5 for parking. But my dad would be able to do that after work – and that’s 5ish – so again they’d be closed. Oh, well, apparently it might be open until 7 on Tuesday. I don’t know. Maybe I’ll ask my dad to take me during lunch time. Blah. I hate bugging him for it.

Going to work this week has been easy – mostly. The days are so cut up for them because they go to this and that – so no extended times in the classroom. When there is – it goes by so quickly that we wish there would be more done. We’ve almost finished reading The Cay (a book I read as a 4th grader – or so – and I thought they would enjoy – and they do). We’ll finish it tomorrow. What else will we do tomorrow? No idea – we’re having a pizza party. I’m sure I’ll get some little presents – but we’ll see. I know she’s going to get me something – what? I don’t know.

Anyway – I made my stir fry tonight – it was yummy. I used a lot of onions – mmmm – so I probably stink, but not as bad as garlic, right? My hands, however, smell like garlic! Yum! I love smelling them. I’m strange, yes, I know. (But come on, admit it, you like it too!).

I found out that Evita the musical is coming to Orange County. The first date is August 1st and I REALLY want to go. Lindsey won’t go because it’s her sister’s birthday (although since her sister lives across a couple of state lines, I don’t know the difference this makes). She’s been really out of touch – for quite some time – at this poing. I understand it’s the way that she is – distant when she has a lot going on. It might a mechnism she gained while having to be on her own at home when her parents were distant – but it’s annoying to me. I understand a couple of weeks – but it must be a month at this point. She’s texted me a few times (always in response to my texts to her) and none were anything other than her telling me how busy she is. Fine. But I cannot believe you don’t have 10 minutes to give your best friend a call to see how she’s doing, etc. I’m at a point where I’m done with it. We’ll see when she finds the time for me – and when and if she does – we’ll see if I have the time for her. I’m always there when she needs me. She, however, is not.

Hmm… I wonder if there is anything else I have to mention. Nope, I don’t think so. Bye!

Final

I got my final from my supervisor – I got 193 points – I only needed 159. So I did well. Now it’s a matter of finishing out the week and finishing my portfolio. I made a dent in it today. I worked on the philosophy and added captions to all the pictures. Next I need to do the goals. I’ll try to work on it in class tomorrow. I need to do it in writing.

Alright… now reading! We walked to the library and I checked out “Wicked” but I don’t think I’m going to read it now because it’s so long. I think I’ll check it out when I can back from my sisters house when I have more time to read. I checked out 5 other books as well.

Blah!

So today was a good day.

Work was fun and it went by quickly. Tomorrow will go by even quicker. And then there will be 3 days left! Went to my class afterwards and then went to Acapulco’s for a drink with the prof and classmates.

I’m still feeling shitty…. is teaching really what I want to do? Do I really want to stay in this… do it… is it what I’m made for? I’m over being a young adult – I want to be done with everything. Done withs chool, done with getting a job, just being in it and being ready and done… and man! Why does it suck. Am I the only one that feels this way? It feels like it.

Whatever.

Anyway, so today was a good day overall (even if I’m falling to pieces currently).

Being with the girls in a week or so will be really nice. It’ll take my head away from it all – and it’ll mean I’m done with everything… that also means, however, that I have a week or so to finish the portfolio and turn it in. AHHH! BASICALLY I have this week and the weekend. I want to get it mostly finished tomorrow before Natalie comes on Wednesday so I can have her see it and she can tell me what she thinks… she can mark it up and do whatnot. Then again, I don’t know if that’s a good idea or not.

I could also e-mail Steve Holle, but I don’t know if that’s a good idea either. I thought of e-mailing him to see if he could give examples of what it should look like (the IIP), but I’m not sure if that would do any good.

I’m going to leave at 1:15 and not stay for the faculty meeting and work on it (it being my portfolio). I think maybe I’ll go to the library and try to work on it there… but I don’t know that that would make a difference for me getting anything done. PROBABLY not. I think I just need to get in my room and lock the door and have Nikki stay out. Hopefully I can do that. I think I can. I relaly wish I had a sample of what it is, though. I’ll do my best!

Okay, bed time! Early to bed, early to rise makes me an annoyed girl. But only 4 more days…. for now!

Day.

Lovingness.

I don’t know where that came from.

Went to Babyies R Us with the sibs to do a baby registry.

My goodness. I have nothing NOTHING to really write about. My life is SO damn boring that nothing even interests me to write.

Blah.

It’s Sunday night – have to start back up to work tomorrow. 5 more days, though, so hopefully it’ll go by quickly. Tomorrow we’re doing drinks at my seminar (well, drinks after class). That should be fun, or at least interesting. I figure I’ll park off campus tomorrow for that. Then Friday we’ll have a pizza party in class.

But… between the two days I have nothing. Boring. Boring. Boring.

I don’t even have money to go out on my own.

GRRR!

Okay, well, Wednesday we can do the Farmer’s Market.

Blah.

Eek!

I bought a Coach Purse! OMG!

Sunday

Life seems very dull. I do nothing. Work. School. Nothing interesting. I might go out with my family on the weekends. No friends. No boyfriends. No dates even. I feel bored with life. What’s the point of it. It goes along with my feeling that teaching might not be for me. But I need to give it time. It might be something that I am feeling right now – but I’ll be fine in a week or hopefully by the time I get a job. I’m having my sister help me fix up my resume and my cover letter so when I get back from up north I can take them to different schools in the area. We’ll see how it all goes. Again I’ve been avoiding something else – taking the CPR class. I need to take it and get it done with. But I haven’t. I’ll do it next weekend when I am done withs chool and all I have to do is turn in my portfolio. That’ll be nice. Turn it in and be done with it.

That will be nice.

Finally.