The Week Has Finished!

I did the broccoli thing today and it was fine. The teacher was happy with how comfortable I was with the class and I didn’t feel nervous. It was, however, an easy BS lesson – so I’ll have to see what it is like when I actually have to teach them something.

I have set myself up with what I know I have to do this weekend.

I mentioned how un-social I’ve been feeling, but along with that I also felt very “blah” and with no energy or want or desire to do anything but stay in bed and whine about not doing anything. Well, I decided it was enough of that – so I took a shower and cleaned up my room, organized crap that needed to be organized and now I’m ready to get work done tomorrow.

We’re also planning on going to see the birds and ducks at the Sepulveda Basin – but as usual with my famiily, who knows if it will actually happen. It should, because otherwise I’ll be stuck indoors all day and shopping is a bad idea as I’ve been doing really well with not spending money.

Which reminds me – I need to do my taxes. I doubt mine will be very difficult. Last year my brother did them and did I don’t know what for them. This year I think he gave up, so I think I get to do them with nothing weird or whatever in them. The question is – will I know how to do them at all? I want to get them done so I can get my refund and my return (since I made so little last year). It would be a big help, as well, to get the money from working the election – that’s $150 or something. I don’t even remember. But it’s over $100 and that’ll be helpful.

Lakers are playing again tonight and it’s funny. Yea, maybe I’m a… whatever it is they call it when you start watching when they win and not a true fan – but hey, I do what I can and I don’t care what you think.

As far as my knitting goes – I’ve gotten A LOT done. But I slowed down work on it since I got sick. I’ve done a bit more these past few days, but I need to do quite a bit more. I think I’m at least half way done. And I’m hoping I don’t have to buy anymore yarn.

Oh! I forgot to mention that I was able to do some writing this morning. I have to keep a journal for my student teaching – about my good experiences, bad, etc. So I took time this morning to write that in my notebook. I wrote about a page and it was quite a nice expelling of wrods and energy from my pencil. Sometimes I just need to write by hand. Other times by typing.

Typing this makes me feel good. I wish there were more for me to talk about. Alas, I have not found anything to talk about. So I shall stop here.

Needs.

My need to write has risen from last night. A part of me really wants to sit down and write. But what to write about. I ask myself if having become a journalist (more-so than just earning a degree) would have had me feel complete in this area or left me empty as well?

I write as a teacher – but it’s a different type of writing. I sense, however, that by the time I finish a few of these lesson plans I’ll be done with writing and I’ll want to do anything but.

I need to get more… and I have no idea what I was going to say right there. Prince Harry sidetracked me on TV.

As far as the boy search goes… I have a couple of prospects but I’m not excited to go out with any of them. I haven’t even seen Todd again. Maybe it’s because I’ve felt so crappy – I just haven’t been in it in my head. I’ve been feeling very anti-social. I want to recluse myself in my room and just relax or be with my mom or family. Which is funny – since I’ve been doing that for the past week since I got sick.

I think maybe I need to do my lesson plans and whatnot, so I can have them done and not be worried about it. Have it off my mind and feel happy about not having to worry about it.

Maybe I’ll do that this weekend. Relieve myself.

Okay, I shall go to work now!

goodness!

I had my first observation today and it went well. My supervisor was content. I was content.

I’m doing a “health” lesson tomorrow – about broccoli. Very exciting.

Next Wednesday I’m doing a reading one… which reminds me I need to e-mail my supervisor and best do it now. Okay – that’s one.

I wrote this nice e-mail, and it made me miss writing. I wish I had the ideas to write and continue with a story or something. Something to be creative and use my writing ability to the best of my ability (ha! that was amazing writing, wasn’t it!).

Who knows, maybe one of these days. Although with what seems to be the amount of work I need to do – I doubt that it’ll be possible. I have a bunch of stuff that I need to get done. Lesson plans and other studd for my student teaching. I’m a bit nervous about it all. I know I can do it – but I’m nervous about actually getting it done and in a timely matter. Which shouldn’t be a problem other than because I have become lazy from not having classes to answer to.

I’ve lowered my Prednisone dosage to 40mg a day (down from 60mg) and then on Saturday I will go down to 20mg a day. I thought I’d be done with it by now, but in the evenings my legs really start itching and i’m afraid the hives are trying to get back. Maybe tomorrow instead of taking the prednisone I’ll take the atarax (which I only took the first day) and see if that alleviates the itching and the hives don’t come back. Once I see any hives I’ll take the prednisone.

I’m watching the Laker game – and I haven’t really watched since their first loosing year a few years ago (man, has it been 5 years since they won a championship?) and now Derek Fisher is back on the team – and I LOVE him. So it’s fun to watch.

It’s also nice to be up past 8pm – since I began on the prednisone I’ve been sleeping by 8, 8:30. Today I made it to 9pm. But not much past that… I don’t think!

Sleep is good.

Back to work!

So I went back to work yesterday and today we have a field trip.

I’m tired.

I took my last huge dosage of Prednisone yesterday – I’m going to take another dosage today, but it will be 20mg less than the last three days.

I wish I had an extra hour of sleep in the morning – but this will have to do for now.

Off I go!

Awake

I have woken up without any hives to be seen. BUT this isn’t an absolute end. I’ll continue taking the prednisone for a couple of days to make sure that it doesn’t come back. I missed work today – although I could have made it… alas, I decided to take the day.

I finished the assignment – dad went over it and he was able to play it the way it was supposed to go – so that’s good. I’ll give it to the teacher, Lana, and see if she approves. Then on Thursday I’ll present it with the damn supervisor present and she’ll judge me – blah blah blah.

I want to go back to work because I need to stimulation and desire to work and do what I need to do to finish this experience and get my own classroom. I’m beginning to be more excited about finishing and being in my own self-contain classroom. Especially with a clear view that I might possibly be hired at this same school. Of course I’ll see if I can apply at schools closer to Chatsworth – but since I’m not in a permanent home right now – it doesn’t make a big difference – and the commute at this point isn’t bad – 15 minutes.

So, now, being at home I feel frustrated because I’m not completing anything.

I have my class at 4pm – but I left some stuff at the school – so I won’t have everything, which sucks. But that’s life. I have a feeling that I had to do something for this class, but I can’t remember. We’ll see.

I have a bit of a headache.

I need to do something productive. I’ve spent the weekend in the hospital and in bed. Nothing good.

Itch!

So I woke up at around 2am with unbelievable motivation to scratch my body. Not just one place. EVERYWHERE. Mom gave me some lotion – but it didn’t do much – so I had to use some self-control. In the morning they went to get some stronger cream and get some stuff that was recommended to do at home for hives. Didn’t work. So off to the urgent care my dad and I went again. This time, after 2 hours in the waiting room, I finally saw an actual doctor (and not a nurse practitioner that I saw yesterday) and she prescribed me 20mg of pregnisone three times a day (60mg total) compared to 4mg at 6 times a day that the lady gave me yesterday.

She also gave me Atarax (or something like that) for the itching. So far – so good. No real big itches.

Both these drugs are supposed to make me sleepy – but neither has.

I have a note for work – telling me not to go back until Tuesday because of that.

Hopefully I’ll be able to fall alseep and stay asleep, because I haven’t been able to do that for 3 nights. Which SUCKS.

Okay, that is all… I believe!

Hives

So I have hives. The medicine my mom gave me yesterday contained sulfates – which I am allergic to. Which my mom knew, but for some reason thought I was allergic to Penecillin. (or however you spell it).

So I went to Urgent Care this morning and they gave me steroids – I wish I would’ve taken a picture, and I thought about it, but then again – who would have wanted to see it?

A lot of it cleared up – but my legs are still a bit affected – which reminds me, I need to take the last 2 dosages for today of the steroids – each day I take one less, for 6 days (so… I started today with 6).

My sinuses and congestion are doing slightly better and I had a bit of energy this afternoon/evening. I was able to type up one my lesson plans – so I’ll print that out tomorrow and try to fix anything that needs to be fixed. I’ll also give it to my dad to see if he can figure out my instructions. Then I’ll give it to my teacher on Monday so she can see if I should make any changes for Thursday (evil supervisor coming to “supervise” that day – eww).

Now… to sleep!

Stupid cold.

It’s stupid stupid cold! I hate it

I hope tonight will let me feel better in the morning. I can’t take a third day of this and I have to get some work done.

My head hurts. I’m tired of being in bed.

BLAH!

Early

I went to sleep early yesterday. Maybe at 7pm. Woke up at 10pm and then went back to sleep soon tehre after. Woke up a bit past 6am.

I slept with my mouth open because I couldn’t breath through my nose, so when I woke up this morning I couldn’t talk. I had some hot drinks/food but it’s still a bit scratchy. I have a Vit. C drop in my mouth – hopefully that will help.

My nose is half stuffy and half clear.

I’m feeling really tired and I just want to sleep. I also have a dry heaving cough.

This really is a bad time to get sick. Of course when I start working… the time before that… all well.

Yesterday I showed up at 7:30 and I had to wait until almost the start of school for her to show up, so I think I’m going to show up at 7:45 from now on. There’s no point of being there before that – for now.

I need to finish the sociogram questions so I can write the necessary information in charts. Wow, am I looking forward to that. I’ve been looking for some sort of drawing program so I can do my classroom map on the computer instead of by hand – but I don’t know of that being possile at this point.

Alright, time to at least get ready for work.

Date Last Night

So I had a date last night with this guy… his name is Todd. He’s very cute and has a hot body (like… a six pack! wow!). We had a good time. We’ll see how things go from here.

I, unfortunately, have bad allergies and my nose is just running and nothing will stop it!

BLAH!