Grrr!

I hate when I save something and I can’t find it afterwards! I started working on something at school, class got cancelled, so I came home and closed it and now I can’t find it!!!

I might see Jon later today. For now… relaxation… and more knitting!

Stuffy!

I have a stuffed nose. It sucks. I have medicine. That’s good.

I had a good time last night. Things went well and they seem like they will continue to.

I’m tired! *YAWN*

Sleepy time… but it’s too early.

Blah!

Life Update

I haven’t shared too much on what had been going on with Matt and I. Basically, although I was happy with him, he had a lot of issues with confidence that he couldn’t deal with, which caused him to put them onto me. Bottom line: long distance does NOT work. So we broke up. That’s it. No need to comment further.

As is customery for me I am not wasting time in sitting at home and crying over it. I am moving on. I met someone on line, his name is Jon, he’s 29 and own his own business and home. He lives in Camarillo, which is 30 miles away, BUT that’s much better than England and Aaron lived about the same distance – which was fine… if this guy, Jon, doesn’t turn out to be an asshole like Aaron.

We’re going out for dinner tonight. We’ve done a lot of talking and gotten close in the time we’ve talked. Which is usual for me. We shall see how things go. I’ll be less apt to post on here, or at least publicly, maybe in sealed my eyes only posts. He’s pretty cute. Short, but cute.

I finished my second strip for my blanket and started on one that’s have the size – to change the pattern a little bit. I need to buy more yarn this weekend though. We are meeting in Porter Ranch, so I’ll be able to go to Wal*Mart so that I can buy more yarn. Dunno if my mom is going to go to the mall or what… so I’m not sure if I want to go out or not, with her.

I’m watching Silence of the Lambs today. Never seen it before – seen the other ones though.

Jon was going to go see SawIV last night with buds but they flaked on him, so he and I might see it one day.

I’m kind of annoyed at Lindsey right now. We’ll see how that goes.

Anixety-galore

I am so anxious. It’s not a lot of fun. I need to see my doctor. The bad air quality has affected me… left my nose really dry and yucky. It hurts and in the morning it bleeds.

I haven’t had the energy to do anything after I get home. I feel depressed, but without a reason. It’s the worst when you don’t know why you feel bad.

I’ve been doing more of the “teaching” in the class. I had a couple of pictures taken today. Fun. I’m ready for it to be over with though. Not because it’s hard, but because it’s frustrating. I’m done being an “assistant” or “student” – I want to be done with all this pre stuff and get on with getting a job. A school in West Hills is going to be opening in Fall of next year – but I don’t know how hiring goes for school openings. I just get nervous that I won’t be able to have a job once I am eligible for one. I responded to a craigslist ad today about being a substitute at $115 a day.

Whatever. I’m making some chicken for dinner, but I don’t know if I’ll feel like eating it!

Hello My Dears!

Kimberly’s sister had a little girl yesterday – on my brother’s birthday – further connecting her family to mine (ha!). I saw pictures and she is a very cute baby.

Dana hasn’t been able to make an appointment with the OBGYN yet. They are going to Mexico (Cancun) for 11 days – she probably won’t get to see the doctor before they come back.

Nothing else really going on around here. I have a test on Monday – so I’m going to try to work on that while I babysit Gabriel this afternoon.

I began reading Colbert’s book. It’s not as funny as I expected it to be, but still good.

As far as knitting – I am almost done with the second rectangle. I have to buy more yarn as well. I was going to buy the green yesterday at Wal*Mart but they only had the blue. Next time.

I’m ready for student teaching to be over. I feel as though I’m there doing the same stuff I did as a TA but not getting paid for it… which sucks! I mean, I did 3 years of TAing – why can’t that count towards student teaching? Frustrating!

When it comes to the fires… they are still burning and the smell of smoke comes and goes in the Valley throughout the day. Sometimes stronger and sometimes not at all.

Okay – more knitting before *work*.

My parents drive me crazy!

So they are still very much against me being with Matt. It’s not that they dislike him but that they feel that he’s using me and when I mentioned that I’m going to go to England in December they really don’t want me to. It frustrates me so much! They haven’t liked anyone that I have dated – what am I supposed to do? Tell them to find someone for me. Who the hell would they find?

I want to cry. I want to get out of here. I want to leave, be on my own and not be with them.

Anxiety

I think it’s time to change my anxiety medicine. Time to make an appointment with my doctor. Blah. A new doctor .

The anxiety is not letting me sleep. I feel restless… the need to do something, but it’s 10:30 and I need to sleep. I got hopeful that CSUN would be closed tomorrow – but not even a comment on the website. They closed when there was a lot of smoke during the last fires that brought smoke to this area. We’ll see in the morning.

Help me sleep!

Fire! Fire! and more FIRE!

As I was going to sleep last night and had my window open. It smelled like fire. I didn’t close the window right away because sometimes people burn stuff and the smell goes away fairly quickly. This time it was going on for quite some time and it was getting stronger so I closed my window. I heard on the news that there was a fire near Castaic – which is about 30 miles from me. Went to sleep and whatever. Then this morning I wake up and they are reporting fires in Malibu. We watch that and then fires start breaking out all over SoCal. Almost a dozen fires are currently burning… Orange, Irvine, Canyon Country, Castaic, Moorpark, Malibu to name the ones I remember. During the day smoke started to come over Chatsworth – covering the sun and giving us an eerie orange glow (there was no orange, so red will have to do).

The smoke dispersed some in the afternoon/evening, and not it’s too dark to be able to tell (from my window at least). The smoke didn’t bring any real smell, or at least where I am. We’ve kept the windows closed and we turned on the AC (which was some advice we heard on TV). Our windows (which are only a few years old) are double-paned and shut tightly, but still the smell of smoke is sneaking it. It could also be coming in through the ventilation for the washer/dryer which is in the hall of the upstairs. My lungs aren’t very happy with that.

On Friday night Lindsey and I went to the Spooky House (which is now located here in Chatsworth). It was really awesome. $20, and it was worth it. Our ticket stubs give us $2 off another spooky house in Pasadena which should be pretty good as well. We might be going on Friday… or sometimes before it closes. That one is slightly cheaper ($11.50 with the coupon).

Uhoh – another fire broke out in Ontario, so that’s another one. Oh – I remembered that there are one or two in San Diego County as well.

I started knitting a blanket last week when I went to Lindsey’s house for dinner. Instead of doing it in squares I’m doing long rectangles. It will end up being in stripes. I finsihed one rectangle (in green). I started a second one yesterday… or rather, maybe Friday night. It’s about 1/4 to 1/3 done. I’m not going to put a back to this one so it should be fine. I still need to put a back to the other one… but I just dunno.

I am researching on changing the top to my car… we shall see. Dad will pay for it.

Umm. Dana starts her 6th week of pregnancy tomorrow. She’ll call and make an appointment for a OBGYN tomorrow. I want to go to the first appointment, hopefully I’ll be able to. We shall see about that, as well.

Tomorrow will be very interesting at work – with wind and if it still smells like fire the kids are going to be going crazy. Hopefully they’d do indoor recess (inclement weather). But who knows. I’m not outside, so it doesn’t affect me, but the kids shouldn’t be exposed to it either.

Okay, back to knitting and waiting for Desperate Housewives to start.

A Real Post!

So here I am, nothing on TV, no urge to do homework… so why not post? Although I suddenly feel like crap… headache and stomachache.

I’ve been doing my student teaching and it’s been working well. I like my mentor teacher and she likes me. I’m getting through it just fine. 3 weeks done and 6 weeks to go. Not too bad. I am tired of getting up early though I’m such a lazy bum. That’s the issue. I’m being pretty good at keeping up with homework and other things. My only issue is having to do the portfolio – I feel really unprepared when it comes to that. Hopefully after Monday it will be better.

Lindsey met a friend… a boy friend. They’ve only been “seeing” each other for a week or less. She just texted me because he has to work for the night and she’s upset about it (they were hoping to have the whole night together without worrying about getting up early in the morning). So that sucks I feel bad for her.

Umm… Matt and me. We’re good. Like any long distance relationship, we have our ups and downs. The downs being a lack of good communication. Ups is everything else. So yea, it sucks sometimes, but most of the times it’s awesome.

Oh… and here’s a tidbit – Dana’s PREGNANT! She took 3 tests between last night and this morning and they are all positive. She’ll make an appointment on Monday for a OBGYN. She’ll be 5 weeks on Monday. So it’ll be for late June. Maybe a boy? Start time for coming up with boy names. If it’s a girl it will be Natalia Sienna or Sienna Natalie. What do you guys thing? Which one is better. I think the first.

Not much else going on in my life right now. Pretty boring.

I suck!

I know, it’s been a week since I posted, and more than that since I’ve really posted. I guess the whole “thing” got to me enough that I chose to turn away from LJ for a bit. And by getting to me, I mean, I haven’t felt like blogging.

Not going to really post right now either. My laptop is hot and ER is about to start and I’m tired. One more day until the weekend! 6 more weeks of student teaching! I can do it!!