Everyday…

He told me, he falls a little more for me.

I do too.

I made him dinner last night. It was really nice. Afterwards we went to his place and had a great evening.

I miss him.

Dana has a mountain bike that I’m going to be able to borrow when Michael wants to go mountain biking. So that’s exciting to think about. He has to get the bike in good condition first, though.

My body is sore. Running, hiking, activity. My body is complaining, but not very much.

I told Michael that he owes me a complete body massage next weekend. He works 10 to something today. Dunno what’s up after that. Might be the first day of not seeing each other in 2 weeks! Crazy thoughts!

I’m going to see if there are any homework assignments I need to complete… but I think I have everything done.

It is amazing!

It is completely amazing how immature some people can be.

The TA at work that is the daughter of one of the teachers – Leeat. She’s 20. Barely going to school. She acts like she’s still in high school. I took the day off Thursday to go to Magic Mountain. People take the day off from work to go to other events ALL the time. It made her not be able to go on a field trip poor baby!

Anyway, onto other things…

Went on a hike this morning at Cheeseboro Canyon. It was nice. Michael made me run 10 minutes!! That’s just crazy! I actually did it!

I was suppose to go to Lindsey’s tonight, but she works early on Sunday so… yea, probably not tonight.

But we’ll see. We shall see what’s going on later on today.

Michael works until 10pm. I would really like to spend the night with him, but damn Amanda hasn’t moved out completely yet.

Blah!

I’m good!

So… yesterday was a hard day.

But he said he loves me and I love him too. We’re not IN love, but we do love each other.

He told me…

“If loving someone means that you want to be with them all the time, you think about them all the time and want to protect you from getting hurt, if that is what love is, then I love you.”

AWWWW!

I made an appointment with an optomotrist to get contacts. It’s going to be expensive, but it’s important, because I’m seeing really badly. Glasses just don’t work for me. Maybe for night, before bed, but not all the time, no.

I just finshed two big assignments. I feel really relieved. I have other stuff to do, but in that I feel good.

Michael texted me at 3 to see if I’d have “lunch” with him, but then he hasn’t texted me back. I assume he’s gotten really busy, so it’s okay.

It gave me time to do my assignments. Get organized in that manner.

Now… TV, dinner… who knows.

I can barely…

stand my parents.

We set rules and then I follow them and they still aren’t happy.

They drive me insane.

I’m emotionally drained from them.

Hello!

So it’s Magic Mountain time.

I’m excited.

I’m starting to feel overwhelmed with seeing him everyday, but I don’t want to stop. I like it once I’m there. That’s how I work though, with a lot of different things.

Today: Magic! Then he’s taking me somewhere afterwards, but he’s very secretive. So I’m not sure where, but I think it involves miniature golf.

This surprise he has for me… he still won’t tell me what it is. Hopefully he got it yesterday or something so that he can give it to me. I’m sure it’s something sexual though!

Oh! So on Tuesday we went to Malibu and on a hike/walk. It was really nice. At the end of the hike there was a waterfall. We went in the evening… and so when we got to the end it was dark… and we had stand up sex. It was amazing. Lots of fun.

I am sleepy.

Sleep… magic… all good. We’re leaving at 9.

*sigh*

So I got this wave of emotion for Michael.

I’m leaving school early and we might get together depending on when he gets together with his uncle. BUT he was telling me that he bought a book with different trails in it at REI and that we should check them out. I told him that that would be great. He said that we need to get me hiking shoes. Then he asked when my birthday was… I told him not until October. He said “When is the next time I get to buy you presents?” I told him that he can always buy me presents, that I didn’t mind

I told him about “el dia del amigo” in Argentina which is equivalent, somewhat, to Valentine’s Day here. He said “Are we just friends?” I told him “No”. But it was just so cute the way he asked. Like he was worried that we were. I mean, come on! I told him we can celebrate V-Day a little late

I think that I’m totally falling for him. Amazingly. I hate being away from him. I love being with him. I love going out and doing things with him.

Tomorrow I doubt we’ll see each other (but you never know) and Thursday we’ll go to Magic – so that’s cool. Very excited about that!

I’m just… infatuated with him… but not really. He is just… ahhh! For Robert work came first, for him, family, me, friends do. It is so cool that he’s helping out his uncle like that. That he won’t back out for me. Sounds bad, but I like it. It means that if it was something for him and I, he wouldn’t back out for me.

Alright… bye!

What is it when…

I feel lonely without him. That I’m afraid that I won’t see him tonight.

I want to be with him.

At the same time, I know that it’s better to be apart. We can’t be together all the time. We need some distance. It’s good.

I’m going to brush my teeth and good to sleep.

Grr #2

My mom just pisses me of so much sometimes. I mean, they had a problem with what I was doing, so I talked to them about it and we came up with rules and now she bitches about something else. Just leave me alone! Let me be! If I coulf finish by credential in one year, I’d do it. Just to get out of here. I have overstayed my welcome.

Let’s be positive. When I start working I’ll be making… $4,000 a month. That’s an estimate (it should be higher, but I’m just deducting taxes, etc.) I can rent a studio apartment for $1000 (that’s what Michael pays a month). That’s really feasible. I could find a shared apartment even. I’ll move in with Lindsey even. Or who knows.

How my mom loves to push me to get me out of the house. I don’t know if it’s what she’s doing on purpose, but she’s doing it anyway and it’ll be the happiest day in my life when I rent my own place and live on my own.

Grrr!

My mom gets into pissed off moods – in general, not particularly at me or anything, and she starts bitching at EVERYONE! I just have to listen at her bitch. It started because I parked in the garage last night because my dad was asleep when I got home. My dad’s not mad, he knew I was coming home somewhat late.

It’s worse than when she’s pissed off at me.

Blah. Beautiful thing to wake up to.

I forgot about this…

So on Friday, Mike told me, the ex found a piece of a condom wrapper in the shower. But the problem was that she came and asked him “How far have you gone with her?” and he told her that we had only kissed. Then she showed him the wrapper. So she was extremely pissed off that he lied to her. He had never lied to her before.

I feel bad for him.

She’s been MIA since then. He said that she holds grudges so he thinks that she’ll make herself scarce. Because of this he doesn’t want me over at his place until she moves out. He is really upset about the situation. And today is her birthday. I told him to call her. He asked if txting would be okay, and I said it depends if he wants to hear her reaction or not. I don’t know what he ended up doing because that was this morning before he went to work.

Lindsey’s plane lands at 7:30, so I’ll be leaving here at 7 or so.

So an hour to go I haven’t eaten today.