I’m so…

sad.

Fun. But why do guys have to be so difficult to deal with?

Why can’t things be a bit simple? People.

I want to cry. No real reason to cry either. I guess I didn’t cry enough the other day.

But – come on – it’s Thursday night. Friday is right around the bend, then the weekend. I’ll find out if I’m allergic to peanuts or not. Oh, yea, Jamba Juice for lunch, too.

Can someone like me for who I am. Not the music I listen to. Who I am. What I am like.

I’m a nice person.

I just want to cry, but I don’t want to give myself that opportunity. There is no reason to cry.

*yawn*

okay.

Went, had fun… eating evil things for dinner.

What to do, what to do! Who knows. For now, be happy. That’s enough.

So tomorrow I need to get the livescan thing done. ASAP. I need to turn in my application, they said that to me. In an email. So it works. Woo.

What else…

It’s cold. I’m going to brush my teeth and go to sleep. ER tomorrow (although… maybe a repeat?)

Blah.

So I had planned to see Chris after he was done today with an interview/meeting. I decided to come home to wait it out – took a slight nap. He woke me up – he had just gotten out at about 2:30. Calls me back some time later (like 20-30 minutes ago) and tells me that his car ran out of gas – if I could take him some. Then I get ready – just getting dressed – and the Metro people stop and give him enough to get home.

So I took a shower… waiting for him to get home, and I’ll see if he wants me to come over.

I like him… but he’s very quiet, uncommunicative when we’re not together. Not talkative on the phone… so I don’t like that. He is very nice though… it’s not that he’s not interested (or at least it doesn’t seem so) it’s just the way he is.

*sigh*

I’ve also been seeing Robert – he’s only 22 and that’s his big downfall. But he’s serious, not a partyer, etc. Talks quite a bit, but he’s a nice guy as well. He likes me, for sure.

Decisions. And then I end up with no one. *le sigh*

Tata. He’s on… I’ll leave.

I can do it!

I can graduate! I went and saw my advisor and we went to the Dean of my college and he’s subbing my CD 361 class for the stupid mistake I made this semester.

So I can graduate in 3 weeks! Yay! Woo! Yay! I am just about done with my BA! CRAZY! Still gotta finish the credential stuff. I’ll apply… when I can. Tomorrow, hopefully I can go and get my livescan shit done. If not Friday for sure – ask my bro to take me. And Friday I’m doing my tetnus shot.

So I’ll try to get it in next week – Monday hopefully. I’ll park off-campus and walk to turn it in. I really need to get my butt in gear….grr.

Okay, gonna stop thinking of that because it’s just going to frustrate me more. Today is happy day that I get to graduate as planned.

Two more days until Saturday! Woo! Testing until Friday – cause that’s when it’s due – so no prob there! Woo! Blah blah blah.

I’m tired… I’m going to go to bed. LONG ass day at school today.

Oh… Chris tomorrow?

I’m off…

To meet my destiny.

Will I graduate. Will I not?

I will not know… maybe not even when I return!

Damn it.

If they are doing this fridge thing today – it means I can’t get to CSUN to get fingerprinted. *sigh*

Well, I’ll try again on Thursday or Friday.

More workers…

So yea… hopefully this will be the last workers in the house for a while. They are doing the kitchen and two bathroom floors today.

She then decides that they will throw out the fridge and buy a new one. *sigh* I’m going to try to not be involved in this. The best I can.

Crap. Well, after work I’m meeting with my group at the library by CSUN (not the one AT CSUN) – to discuss the project. I don’t know how it’s all going to work out – writing the paper that is. Who knows. We’ll find out, though. We need to get a ton of more ice samples though.

Tomorrow I can spend some time at CSUN tomorrow to get samples. That’ll be a goal for the meeting – figure out where we’re going to get the rest of the ice samples. So far – no positive results. Everything is negative.

Last week when I met with one person she was like 90 minutes late, so hopefully she won’t be – becuase I really don’t want to sit around the library for so long. I’d much rather come home, take a nap and then study for my test tomorrow. I need to study both parts – as last time he changed it and ruined it for most of us who had thought it would be the same as the first test.

*yawn* My mom made me help push the fridge and now my back hurts even more than usual.

Ack… today looks soooo long when all I want to do is close my eyes and sleep. I was woken up every morning over the weekend – so I didn’t get much sleep. Saturday – I’m sleeping in. Taking my phone out of the room, turning my cell phone off and locking the door. I do not need anyone to wake me up again.

Alright – I need to get dressed.

Arg!

My sister is such a baby!

She didn’t care to see if her damn pillow was in the car, so now she calls bitching that she wants it. So they want me to drive out (in the opposite direction of campus) to take her the damn pillow.

They offered to pay some gas (cause my tank is empty) – but ask me if I really care? I don’t really give a damn if she has a pillow or not.

I might do it – only to get money for parking at CSUN. But… nah.

Currently I am importing songs from my CDs to my computer so I can put them on the iPod. I need to add them then convert them to AAC (or something) format so that it plays best and I don’t know what. It takes quite a while to do it, too. Well, by quite a bit I mean like 5-7 minutes per CD to import it.

It didn’t recognize the Never Gone CD from BSB. Hmm. Maybe I put it in the wrong direction. I’ll try again another time.

I didn’t see Chris today and I’m sorta sad. But… not devestated.

Hmm, what was his middle name. Oh! Wait…. it’s at the tip… Maurice! Who names their kid Maurice? We match well… in the kid sort of way!

Ramen.

Ramen is good.

Okay!

I only have a couple more things to do before I have to finally take in my application for the credential program. Tomorrow I need to be taken to get a finger printed thingie at CSUN. Once I do that… I think I’m done… lemme see.. I need to make a copy of my tuberculosis clearence. And I have to pay $25 and get my CSUN transcripts.

I didn’t get my transcrips from Pierce… I don’t think I need them. If they later ask for them I’ll get them.

I wrote my letter of intent. I just… okay, that’s what I was going to do.

I need to get my tuberculosis info…. let’s see where mom put it. I think she put it in the safe… so I’ll wait til Nikki wakes up, since it’s in the room.

I found my CSET results – so that’s good. I needed those too.

So I have everything. Yay! I need to turn it in… cause…

I don’t know if it’s just me… not wanting to get started because I’m afraid to… or if it’s just normal procrastinating. But I usually always turn things in on time – and this has been nearly 2 months overdue. So I think it’s more psychological. I don’t want to get there because that means I’ll be a “real” adult. That’s scary. But I need it. I think I’ll feel much better once I actually get accepted, etc.

The nice thing is that in getting all these things together I cleaned off my desk. I haven’t cleaned my desk in a while because since I’ve gone wireless I am not at my desk. I use it at my computer or a roam around the house on my laptop. Very rare for me to be at my desk.

I have to start writing Christmas cards. I’ve decided that I’m only doing minimum presents at work. I have no need to do anything expensive. I can’t afford it!

I’m still looking to see if I can get a second job – part time, nearby, telecommuting. Something that’s not complicated. Sitting at a desk, answering phones, etc.

Okay – I reserved my flight to my sisters house for next month. Less than a month. 12/21. Not bad! I thought I couldn’t go until Saturday or so, but then I realized that I am out of work then – and I have my last final Wednesday night. So Thursday morning I get to leave. Yay! I haven’t bought a return flight yet cause I don’t know when I’m going to come back. Never? Nah.

Damn. I just checked my tuberculosis test and it’s over 2 years – 7/12/04. Damn it. So I need to go get another one done. Dammmmmit!

Okay, so I need to call and see how I can schedule hat. Tomorrow, now it’s too late. Damn.

I’m nervous about the presentation. Rather, I’m nervous about anyone asking questions afterwards. That’ll be bad… I won’t know anything.

It stopped raining too early today. No indoor lunch. It went by pretty quickly though. Hopefully the next three weeks will too. We were talking about that at work. The last three weeks fly by.

Tomorrow after work I need to study for a test I have tomorrow night. I have to write a write up on my ice thing. So I need to wait to get a response from my group mates about it.

Wow, this became long.

I think I’m going to look for something to eat. Soup time?