Stupid people.

So the cost originally to my car… was $1400. Now they say it’s $2000 (how nice it is I don’t have to pay for it!).

The body shop found more damage when he took the hood and bumper off.

So they are going to go through their insurance.

But it’ll take 2 weeks or so to get my car back. So I get to drive a rental in the mean time.

But I need to GET the rental first – and I need it by tomorrow morning!

Ahh!

More guys!

I feel like a dating whore – but whatcha gonna do? I need to keep my options open…

First up with have Gaberiel (Gabe).

He’s cute. Very. But he lives in Long Beach. He says he doesn’t mind driving… but I kind of do. And Long Beach is a far way to go. But I do like him. We talked on the phone… it was nice. He drives a red Miata as well.

Second we have Dustin.

I don’t have a better picture. It disappearded. From my computer that is.

I feel like we had a connection. I don’t know. It felt right. Different than with others.

He said he’d been to see an old woman who reads tarot cards (or something similar) and she told him that he would meet a Libra (which I am) and other things about her. So he asked me questions – and I guess my answers matched what the woman told him. So he was freaked out by that… I guess.

We talked from 4pm to 7:30pm. A short break in between for dinner. So over 3 hours really. That’s crazy. He logged off last night saying he’d call or come back, but he didn’t. I’m not worried about it thoug – cause somethin could’ve come or whatever.

As for Shonty. I don’t know. I’m starting to think he just wants sex (what a thing!). Cause he doesn’t call – and when I do he talks about seeing me… in his place, blah blah blah.

Whatever.

Dustin lives in Canoga Park. That’s AWESOME! Actually, he lives maybe a few big streets down from Jose – off of the same street.

Alright! Out!

*sigh*

Lazy Sunday afternoon.

The sister, brother in law and Mika are at a party.

I’m watching the little one.

I’m bored.

Being entertained.

Tired.

Want to get her to sleep, but not take the time to do it.

Placed

I placed another ad on Craigslist – just to see what’s out there. As much as I like Shonty, he’s distant… and I don’t know if it’s because he’s not talkative or because he just wants sex… I dunno. I’ll find out this coming week.

In the meantime, though, I can keep my options open. I can see guys. I want to. I want to date and find someone to be with that I am good with.

Is it that much to ask for to be loved? Held? Cared about?

So sleepy…

As expected…

I have aquired pink eye. Luckily (at least for now) it is only in my left eye. Still annoying and gooey.

Supposed to have gone out for drinks with my sister tonight… but she doesn’t particularly care to…so whatever.

I am pretty tired anyway… So that’s life.

(post to come)

Peeps! Pay Attention!

My brother-in-law is running for a position on the San Leandro School Board!

Go visit his website…

And if you by chance happen to live in San Leandro – VOTE FOR MIKE KATZ!!

Frustration!

So I’m frustrated.

Talk to Shonty for like 2 minutes online tonight.

Said hello. He wasn’t really paying attention (as much as I can tell via IM).

Asked him if he wanted to go this week. He asked when. I asked what day was best for him (since he’s moving) and he said “talk later. going to bed now”.

GRRR!

Does he want to go out? Is he interested in me? What is it?????? I just need to go out with him so I can figure it out!

Ewww.

I have a pap smear schedule for 2 weeks.

All on my own!

Love them.

I love both these girls dearly. They are both driving me insane and I need to get the hell away! Ahhhh! I want a break! I want a drink! That’s what I want!

Unfortunately, Mike isn’t here so I can’t go out to get a drink.

Right now… I just want to cry. I’m overwhelemed. I really do want to just cry! Ahhh!

Maybe Saturday night… Mike will be back so he can stay with the girls.

Hello my dears.

I am alive. Yes! I am!

So… I know that the only person who reads this is Lisa. So for you and if anyone else reads it…

So on Sunday I went out with Shonty… we did it… and afterwards he was like “don’t have sex with any one else”

Here is my question for you: Is that him being controlling… or is he saying that he likes me and doesn’t want me to sleep with anyone else because he wants to be exclusive.

I find it a bit weird, since we only went out once… but… I don’t know. What do you guys think? Controlling… exclusivity.

I got a vibrator toda! Woo!

In case you want to see…

Exciting. For me, anyway.

Spoke to Shonty Monday night… (after the PLEASE CALL post) and then we spoke again yesterday… and we’ll see. I do like him. He’s fun. Or at least… keeps me interested.

I’ve been doing a lot of talking with Kimberly lately. Specifically about guys. It’s fun. We seem to agree on things. She’s got a guy she really has the hots for! Exciting!

Oh… but I talked to Shonty… asking him what it was he wanted from a relationship… and he said “We already talked about this…” but I don’t remember what exactly it was that we talked about. In the e-mail he sent me he said that he wanted a relationship because he hadn’t been in one in over a year.

I don’t want it to be about sex though. Sex is good, but I want it to be an all around relationship too. So… I figure I’ll have him take me out… talk over dinner or somehing… then decide if it’s going to work or not. Because if he does just want sex… then I have other resources for that. So I don’t want it… I can get it closer, easier, etc. (I do have a new vibrator!).

So yea…I dunno. Now I’m just frustrated… cause I want to be home so I can go out with him and find out what’s going on. See if this can really work. I want it to. I really do.

Oh… life can suck. A lot.

Anyway, I have to go and do stuff.