Hello, good day!

Mom woke me up at 6. Today was my day to sleep in til 7. Not fun. I realized this too late into the morning.

Went to class… was basically bored.

Came home. Did homework/quizzes for my Leisure (sp?) class.

So all I have to do now is finish reading the thing for my afternoon class and I shall be done for today! ;0

Jealousy!

I’m jealous!

I hate being so, but I also hate my girls going to visit their other families. They are MY girls. I’ve cared for them more than their other sides… so they are MINE!

That is all I have to say.

*sigh*

I am in another of those “I really want to do something productive but I have no clue what that is” moods.

I cleaned up my room. So it’s not all messed up anymore. I planned out the things that I need to do int he following week and finished off one assignment that… is late.

Ahh! I wish I hadn’t gone out today. So that I could have actually done homework. Feel better about myself.

I’m just in a funk I guess. I don’t know if having stayed home today would have made me feel any different, though.

I hate when I get to feeling like this.

I think it is also part of knowing that in the next two months I’m going to be really busy… constantly. I’m already dreading it! Sunday’s are going to be my only off days, and I’ll probably be spending them with Aaron. Which I want to do.

Okay. I’m going to lay down, watch this Lifetime movie and go to bed!

La la la dum.

Now that the day is gone I wish I had spent it with Aaron. I miss him so much when we’re not together. It sucks!

I’ll have to figure out a way to see him one day this week even with my ugly schedule. I will! I swear!

God it sucks. Missing him, I mean. I haven’t talked to him today A tiny bit online and a tiny bit on the phone. He is going out with his friends today to celebrate a birthday party – I think. Can’t remember.

So tomorrow I shall go over to his house and… we’ll stay in and do nothing most likely. Maybe my brother has new movies I can watch that will be interesting. I’ll ask him to tell me which ones he has so we can watch them tomorrow. But yea… I don’t know. We can play board games or just lay down and not do anything which is fun too.

We’ll talk tonight I imagine.

Okay! If I talk about him I miss him, so I’m going to stop.

Painful morning.

Yes, it was quite painful to wake up this morning although now I’m doing somewhat better. I slept in until 10am though, which was nice. It’s been a while since I’ve been able to do that.

Today is a beautiful day. Sunny, warm but not hot. I am proud of myself – didn’t go out with Mommy! So no spending money today!

Went to see the Matador last night – eh, wasn’t particularly good. Just okay I think.

I am taking care of Nikki. Put her to sleep in mommy’s room. Stayed in there for a while, but now I finally got up cause I was tired of being in bed. I think I might get my book to read… or I might organize how I said I would yesterday. That is probably a better idea!

Hard day!

I had a pretty hard day at work. I was very sore and then with my ‘evil’ teacher I had a bad time. She makes me feel like crap – although I know she doesn’t do it purposefully, it really drives me crazy. CRAZY. I was almost in tears. Really, I was in tears.

I treated myself to Jamba Juice when I left work – and went to workout straight from work. I really didn’t feel like going home and then going back out to go to Curves. Not that I didn’t want to do Curves, I just really didn’t want to have to go out again before going out with Aaron tonight.

In my haste to leave work I left the laminator on – luckily I remembered and called Lori, she, luckily saw it and turned it off right before I called. So that was good.

Aaron changed plans, so I’m going to his house on Sunday instead of Saturday. So that’s fine. No minding from me. Less time together, but it’s okay.

I’ll go out with David tomorrow, most likely.

Hopefully I’ll have enough energy/want/time to clean up my desk and get organized so that I can feel comfortable in saying “I have nothing to do any time soon” or “I need to get this done, and this” Because right now I don’t know what I’m doing and I don’t like the feeling.

Exactly as they just said on TV: I’m in a state of confusion.

I found my remote though, so that’s a big plus for today!

I finished one of the books I got yesterday, and I started a second today. I’m on chapter 5 I think. I like it.

Okay… for now that will be it because I will start getting ready for my “date” (is it really a date?).

Ouch!

Yea, so I’m in pain. My muscles and body just hurt. Specifically my neck and butt. Odd combination, I know. I took two Bayer back & body so hopefully that will help a little bit.

Yea, so Sasha Cohen screwed up yesterday. Should do better than what she did. Whatever. Silver.

Uhh. I umm… forgot what I was going to say.

I lost the remote to my TV so I had to sleep with no TV last night. Instead I put on my Pocahontas CD that I’ve been wanting to listen to for a while. I know I’m a dork listening to Disney movie CDs but they have really good songs that I really like. And for some reason that CD helps me go to sleep.

After I get back from Curves today, and take a shower, I’m going to have two options as to what to do. It will either be taking a nap which I think I’ll need – since I’m going to an 8pm movie – or to do homework, or at least try to do some so that I can be ahead of things. Although… I’m not exactly sure that I need to be right now. I guess I just want to get some reading done.

I’m pretty sure the nap is going to work out better than the other.

Soooo didn’t want to get up today. Sleeping sounded so good! Darn!

I’m happy to see Aaron again tonight… haven’t seen him since Sunday and I miss him. Although, I don’t know, even though he really hasn’t changed – I feel like he’s pulling away? I don’t know, I might be imagining things. We talk less and less on the phone, but that’s okay. So… I don’t know. He did call me just to tell me he loved me… so yea, I’m going to stop obsessing!

Work!

Here I am, once again, torn into pieces!

Wow. Did I just quote a Kelly Clarkson song? Weird.

I forgot my lunch at home today so I didn’t really eat until 3:15pm. I was a bit hungry.

I played handball with the kids at work today – so it was some excercise for me. I also had fun! Handball was my favorite game (along with tetherball) when I was in Elementary school. In middle and high school I didn’t really play anything… I don’t know, I just “hung out”. Kind of sucky. I hadn’t thought of that until right now. I wish I would’ve kept playing – I would probably weigh a lot less today.

I have Curves at 4:30 today, so another hour. Half hour workout out, I should be home by 5:15pm and then maybe we can go out… the mall maybe? I don’t know. I’d like to go out though.

I changed plans for the weekend – I think I mentioned this, but maybe not, so I will again. On Saturday I’m going to go over to Aaron’s house and then on Sunday go out with my brother. I can stay later on Saturday’s at Aaron’s than I would on Sunday so it’s better this way I miss him so much! I haven’t seen him since Sunday, and I miss him! Even more now than I did when we went 11 days without seeing each other.

He was very cute today – I called him after work like I normally do (although I should stop) and he was going shooting, so we hung up pretty quick. I was talking to Mike and he calls me back. So I hang up with Mike and call Aaron back and he tells me he was just calling to tell me he loved me! I was like “ahhhh” made my heart melt. I had to call Mike back and tell him I’m a dork, I know.

Work was good today. I sat down and really helped one of my 2nd graders (he was my 1st grader last year) and it made me feel good that he felt good about the work he was doing. Although it did start out with him shedding a tear or two. That worked out, though So I feel good!

It was also good because neither of two top admin’s were there today! Yay! It’s so nice to not have to worry about what’s going on! I like it!

I also found out that they owe me 2hr and 15 minutes which works because on the 31st I need to leave early since we’re going up to Mammoth. I’ll be able to work in the morning and then leave early to go to Aaron’s to leave to go there. So it works out in the end.

Anyway, I’m going to lay down and rest for a little bit before I have to head out! Although… maybe I’ll leave now and go to the library to return books and pick up new novels… nah. Rest is better!

Hi!

What is new for me to say?

Not much, really.

We had a meeting at work today – nothing exciting. I think I mentioned a few weeks ago how they (LAUSD) were going to do a training for paraprofessionals…. well there were 75 spots open and they had over 300 applicants. I was lucky and I got in! So I’m going to be doing that on Thursday’s in a few weeks.

That’s $400.

I also signed up to work for 5 Saturdays as a TA for intervention at Haskell… for $12/hour. So a little extra money there. I need all the money I can get. Although I think I can get some sort of job working at Haskell in the afternoons next semester when I have to go to school in the morning. I just have to wait to see what happens with schedules – I think they come out in May. Not sure, though.

Yea, that would be another $200. But take taxes away from both those things. So maybe I’ll get $500 total. That’ll go towards my car insurance which, I think, should be around $700 or so. I have some in savings, though and I need to sell my other stuff.

I’ve been so freaking busy lately. I mean, yesterday I got home from work and did the workout. Today I had to do homework when I got home. Tomorrow I have workout again, same with Friday. And Friday I’ll probably be going out to the movies with Aaron.

Saturday I was thinking of going with David cause that way I won’t spend $$ and I’ll get a free JJ.

Okay – time to get ready for school! Hopefully I’ll get out early!

Continues.

It continues to be a bad sleeping pattern. I wake up several times a night, although only for long enough to check the time. I wake up sweaty. But when I go to sleep I feel nice and warm. So tonight I might try to take another blanket off, see if that helps. Open the window a little bit.

So in the end I wake up more tired than I should be. No nap for me when I get home from work, either. I have to finish up some homework for my night class when I get back after work.

Anyway… I need to get dressed and do all that stuff to get ready for work.

Oh, I tried to get into my credit card account but I always forget my password. dork.